Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Always Amazes

It always amazes me how easily I can get lost in my own head.
It is often during this time of year... that I go through a self examination of life and this year is no exception.
I feel as if I have made some really stupid moves over this past year. I also feel like I have been really blessed to have family and freinds around me for support.
One of those supports being my mother.
My mother is amazing. She is one of the strongest people I know and has taught me so much. I know that I often forget to thank her for the things that she has done for me, I also know that it isn't very often that I mention her in my everyday conversations.
I think that the reason that happens is because I forget. I know I love her,respect her and admire her... and I forget sometimes that I still need to make that known to her.
It has only been within the last year that I have started to realize how much she has sacrificed and given up for me. At my age she was a single mom of 2 doing it on her own and to be perfectly honest I can't fathom what that would have been like. I can only say with much gratitude that I have been extremely lucky to have her in my life.

I miss home sometimes... miss having the crazy grandparents, uncles and family around the sense of just being me, everyone knowing all there is to know... but I also know that as much as I miss it... I am not done here yet. I still feel called to be here.
I think that's something that I have been struggling with. Mostly because although I feel really connected to the PEOPLE around me... I haven't really felt connected to anything else...
Anyway... thats jsut a few random thoughts and thanks that were way overdue....

3 comments:

Rich said...

I totally understand! I'm a big mamma's boy myself and proud if it!

I know Jaci and I are glad you're here and our door is always open to you (especially since you have a key!)

Jaci said...

I think being connected to people is far more important than being connected to other stuff. Being connected to the other stuff but not people is very lonely. You are a lucky girl, and we love you lots!

Carolynn said...

I love you Natasha!! I know you are going through a bunch of changes and if you need my help - let me know!