Inventory of Being

I am Natasha.
I am twenty-three years old.
I am a person with feelings, who loves her family and friends.

If I stand straight and tall, it seems that I have shrunk from who I once was;
either that or my baby brothers are giants.
I have brown eyes that change with my moods,
and nut brown hair that only knows that it's nut brown from pictures and the roots that grow in occasionally.

I am a woman, a girl and a child,
almost grown up, but still always learning.

I love my Mom's mac and cheese, Margie's meatloaf and Carolynn's lasagna.
I officially have no extra metal in my mouth so I can enjoy them all even better.

I am a daughter.
I am an older sister.
I am a graddaughter.
I am a neice.
I am a cousin.
I am a friend.
I am a barista.
I am a border.
I am a lover not a fighter.

I love oragne spice white tea and think of Amber everytime I drink it because it reminds her of Thanksgiving and Christmas morning everytime she smells it.

I love green sparkled flowers, and still can't stand spiders.

I can't wait for the Irrestible Revolution and I hope that one day we can all be Blue Like Jazz.

I love cozy chairs and comfy blankets.

I love cookbooks and romance novels.
I believe that Jesus died for me and that there is no way that I could ever thank him enough.

I believe that all children should believe in something bigger then humanity.

I love looking at old photographs and hope that one day Grandma's scrapbook will actually be finished.

I love my triple ring, that serves as a reminder of the many relationships in my life and how we are all conected.

I have great hopes for the future.
But also great hopes for today.
I try to live in today, for none of us really knows what tomorrow will have in store.

I believe in equality for all; men and women, white and black, old and young.

I have learned what "REAL" chinese food is and find it hard to go back.

I have met some amazing people that have taught me alot about frinedship.

I still live like a mess; but I think it's just becasue that is who I am.
At least I know where my stuff is... most of the time.

I have an amazingly crazy family and I love each one of them for it.

I know what its like to make hard rational decisions and then to actually have to live with them.

I have witnessed through friends the understanding of hardship, grace, courage and hope.

I will continue on this Pursuit of Happiness in hopes of Finding Neverland in my dreams.

I need to be afirmed, loved and cared for.
I also need to afirm, love and care for those around me more.

I took a trip to Oz and am still alive to tell the tale.
The flying monkeys didn't get me and the wicked witch left my dog alone.

I have come to care for people and find it much more rewarding then caring for myself.

I believe that the love of my life is out there, and I hope that he is a good and kind man.

I believe that God challenges us to be better people then we are.
That if we all stopped and really thought about what that meant we would all come to try to be the people that HE wants us to be.
Not the people that WE want us to be.

I have come alive agian with the telling of the fairytales of my childhood.
The princesses of castles, dwarfs, fairy godmothers and the princes who come to save the day.

I know that I don't have any answers, only more questions and I love it.
It means that something so much bigger then me has the answers.

Living in a world where there is No Day But Today!

I am Natasha and its the year 2007.