Thoughts

So as I sit here in the wee hours of the morning it hits me that I am blessed beyond measure. I have great friends, I attend an amazing church that I love being a part of, and I know that my family will always be there for me. And it occurs to me.... man I don't want to screw any of that up.
They last few weeks have been absolutely great with hanging out with people and actually thinking about the future a bit.... but I mostly I am scared.
I am scared to put myself out there, to actually make and achieve goals (besides the laundry)to actual start to live life instead of figuring out what I want to do with it.
But where do you start? How do you flip that switch and go for it not knowing what that it is?
I am not too sure if any of this makes sense but hey its like 3am what makes sense now anyway.
Thank you all for bearing with me as I put out there my big questions on life... I feel like this is a time of change and although I have absolutely no idea what or when any changes are going to occur I am praying that they will be good. That God will be present in them and that I can continue doing it with all you all.

Sidenotes, Happy belated birthday to the baby bro the big 1-5! Happy Birthday Chloe!